Help with me and my moms relationship?

so anytime theres a holiday no matter what me and my mom fight. its mothers day today and were in a huge fight and last mothers day we were to and christmas and last christmas. i love my mom but whenever im upset she never there for me she jsut tells me to go away. im always the one who apologizes and i cant take it anymore. i feel like im depressed becase whenever im by myself im constantly negative reallly upset but when im around my friends im always positive kind of like a double personalty. (i dont cut or any mutilation never have and never will) but i feel like if i tell my mom she will say im over dramtic a drama qyeen or a ***** which those are the things she calls me whenever we get into a fight im just really confused and lost i need advice.